When the truth is... I miss you...
by disillusioned
(Person, 2059 views) - 10/8/03
(recorded 10/8/03 @ 3:04:44 AM)
Missing someone is an awfully weird feeling, when you step outside and examine it. It's the manifestation of the longing created by that void left when they're gone... It's the feeling you get deep inside of you, when you remember all the greatest memories you've had with that person, and when you close your eyes and for an instant, you're there with them. Smiling, laughing, and enjoying whatever it is that's there between you.
That's the great thing about the kind of person you *really* miss- you don't even have to know what it is that's there between you- it's something you just feel, you *both* feel, that you *know* is there. It's this magnetism that allows your mind to wander back to thoughts of them when it isn't otherwise preoccupied. It's when you're driving in your car, and *that song* comes on (you know the one), and you look over at the empty passenger seat next to you, and you could *swear* for a moment you saw a glimmer out of the corner of your eye. And even though you miss that person, you still smile.
It's a feeling that drives you, and fills you with the desire to see them again, even though that may not be a possibility. It's allowing all those other minute details, small triggers such as they are, bring back those warm feelings you'd get when you were around that person.

We've all experienced missing someone... And loneliness. And we've all been forced to use our memories, our remnants of the past to recall... or maybe even reinforce that feeling of longing, until you'll next get to see them- even if that may be never.

The truth is, I miss you.
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it may sound odd but... enjoy this reverie while you still can. sometimes, missing a person is *better* than have them there, because there are no bad moments, you only dwell in the good. when and if you ever get them back, its never the same.

hang in there.

   [surrogate sonance (J) 10/8/03 10:12 AM]

I get ya sis, lord knows. Cheer up sweet thang. Member when Buddy died and we could swear he was still running through the house? It's sort of the same... but not of course. Anyway, i think everyone misses someone but angela here is right (boy i actually shudder when thinking that hehe) keep the memories refreshed and pure. Wait a minute.... driving in your car? empty passenger side? What the hell? You're not old enough to drive! Don't make me come down there ;)

   [noprotein (J :: M) 10/8/03 11:36 PM]

I just realized i totally posted that on the wrong entry... HAH! I combined reading something from my sister and this journal not really paying attention to either. Sorry... i should be shot or at least a good shin-kickin is in order. Yeah, well ignore that =)
~Cut and print~

   [noprotein (J :: M) 10/8/03 11:38 PM]

Oh wow, what a good laugh. I thought calling me "sis" was a bit suspiscious... And I didn't know Buddy that well. The train of thought that I just watched crash into a brick wall was absolutely hilarious to me though- thanks for the great laugh. And considering the driving comments... from what I've heard, it wouldn't be entirely unimpossible for your sister to have written it... (Right, Beth? ;-)

Once again Phil, that was awesome! Thanks for the good laugh, man.

*disillusioned ponder's changing author names and ids for just a day to see the different reactions... ;-)

   [disillusioned (J :: M) 10/9/03 12:09 AM]

Even funnier, considering she told me she was *thinking* about posting a musing today, but recanted, for reasons untold. Ironic, but hilarious altogether. Good times.

   [disillusioned (J :: M) 10/9/03 12:13 AM]

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